Can you believe it's already July 1?! Holy COW (i love cows) where did the time go! Landon & I have decided we need to get away from Vegas for the weekend! Woo 4 day weekend for us! So, we decided to head up to Idaho & spend time with family. Things have been extremely stressful for us. I put in about 5-8 hours a day in job hunting & applying. Talk about tiring! Its hard to keep track of everything since I'm applying to 2 towns! I'm hoping someone will be interested in me somewhere! I mean, c'mon, I'm a great person. lol
I better get to packing! Its 5pm & I still haven't packed any of us! Landon has a long night at work so we probably won't get to leave until around 8 or 9, which puts us there around 6am... our usual! Can't wait to see everyone! (:
July 1, 2010
June 29, 2010
I need something POSITIVE right now!
Ryder has already had his 4 month checkup :) & his shots ):
The doctor said he's 26.18 inches long (81 percentile) and he weighs 15.1 lbs (40 percentile).
All this time I thought he getting too chunky. Well, really, that was stemmed from the doctor we saw last time who said he was too big. lol Either way, I LOVE my little man. He's perfect to us & Heavenly Father... that's all that matters!
I feel like the worlds worst mom though. Lately, I have had to spend a LOT of time working on my resume, searching for jobs & applying (which is a REALLY long process these days). Therefore, my little monkey has had to spend a lot of time laying on the floor playing with his toys. I'm sure he doesn't mind, but I definitely do! I would much rather spend my time playing with him, but unfortunately I need to find a job. SO far, NOTHING has come from my hours of work. It's starting to really upset me because we need the money. Vegas is breaking our savings REALLY quick. Not to mention, we will be moving in a couple of months & I need a job lined up there. I figured maybe having my CNA would really help me out. If I would have just gotten it in HS like I wanted. HAH! But my family said golf was more important for college. I think back on some of my advice & laugh. A few things have really screwed me over. But I won't go into that right now... Finding an OPEN CNA program right now is ridiculously hard. The one thing that I thought would give me a little hope in this move isn't working out for me so far. I'm really praying that someone drops out of the program at CSN or that I can get into the accelerated program or that I can find a job both here & in Logan. I'm asking for a lot huh?! Sadly, this whole thing has me really down and depressed. I feel like a loser for not being able to find a job worth a darn or get into a CNA program. I was already told by a college that my GPA was too low for a competitive spot in a nursing program. Wonderful. I've been trying my hardest to get out of this funk, but it's really hard when nothing positive is happening. I guess I gotta keep on praying?!
Well I guess on a positive side, we found a carseat at a garage sale this weekend for $5! That was a blessing since we really couldn't afford to buy a new one. OH & Ryder monkey likes his new toys that cost me a whole .50! Garage saling (sp?!) is my NEW favorite hobby.
The doctor said he's 26.18 inches long (81 percentile) and he weighs 15.1 lbs (40 percentile).
All this time I thought he getting too chunky. Well, really, that was stemmed from the doctor we saw last time who said he was too big. lol Either way, I LOVE my little man. He's perfect to us & Heavenly Father... that's all that matters!
I feel like the worlds worst mom though. Lately, I have had to spend a LOT of time working on my resume, searching for jobs & applying (which is a REALLY long process these days). Therefore, my little monkey has had to spend a lot of time laying on the floor playing with his toys. I'm sure he doesn't mind, but I definitely do! I would much rather spend my time playing with him, but unfortunately I need to find a job. SO far, NOTHING has come from my hours of work. It's starting to really upset me because we need the money. Vegas is breaking our savings REALLY quick. Not to mention, we will be moving in a couple of months & I need a job lined up there. I figured maybe having my CNA would really help me out. If I would have just gotten it in HS like I wanted. HAH! But my family said golf was more important for college. I think back on some of my advice & laugh. A few things have really screwed me over. But I won't go into that right now... Finding an OPEN CNA program right now is ridiculously hard. The one thing that I thought would give me a little hope in this move isn't working out for me so far. I'm really praying that someone drops out of the program at CSN or that I can get into the accelerated program or that I can find a job both here & in Logan. I'm asking for a lot huh?! Sadly, this whole thing has me really down and depressed. I feel like a loser for not being able to find a job worth a darn or get into a CNA program. I was already told by a college that my GPA was too low for a competitive spot in a nursing program. Wonderful. I've been trying my hardest to get out of this funk, but it's really hard when nothing positive is happening. I guess I gotta keep on praying?!
Well I guess on a positive side, we found a carseat at a garage sale this weekend for $5! That was a blessing since we really couldn't afford to buy a new one. OH & Ryder monkey likes his new toys that cost me a whole .50! Garage saling (sp?!) is my NEW favorite hobby.
June 17, 2010
Updates...
Ryder is 4 months old tomorrow. When did my little newborn burrito turn into a curious, smiling, "talkative" infant? Since we decided that going to base everyday for lunch was costing us too much money, Ryder has been extremely bored with me at the house. We play as much as possible, but unfortunately I have to clean the house and do laundry on some days. Last night, we got the brilliant idea to buy him an activity center. He absolutely loves it... and mommy loves it too (: He spent most of the morning playing with the frog, while I did the dishes. Before I knew it, he was ready for a long nap.
I am totally in love with this guy! (:
I was thinking about his baby book today & how empty every page looks right now. Then I thought, "I can't even remember exact dates anymore!" Since I spend everyday sitting at home & on the computer... why not use this blog to keep track of dates? brilliant idea! haha we'll see how well it works for me.
.school.moving.renters.jobs.daycare. these thoughts swarm my brain anymore. Landon is separating from the military for good. He's done in November, which isn't too far away. We are good at making last minute decisions. However, this one is HUGE and extremely stressful. Now, we are debating over Utah State University in Logan UT or University of Utah in Salt Lake City. In Logan, there's family. In SLC, we'll be going at it alone. We came to the realization last night that I'm only going to be able to go part time most likely. That way I can work full time and be able to share in the responsibility of caring for Ryder. Landon can work part time (maybe) & go to school full time... which leaves him with spare time for being Mr Mom. I heard back from Convergys yesterday & have a phone interview on Monday. It's definitely not my dream job or number 1 choice, but I guess I have no choice at this point... Ugh. Stress.
I am totally in love with this guy! (:I was thinking about his baby book today & how empty every page looks right now. Then I thought, "I can't even remember exact dates anymore!" Since I spend everyday sitting at home & on the computer... why not use this blog to keep track of dates? brilliant idea! haha we'll see how well it works for me.
.school.moving.renters.jobs.daycare. these thoughts swarm my brain anymore. Landon is separating from the military for good. He's done in November, which isn't too far away. We are good at making last minute decisions. However, this one is HUGE and extremely stressful. Now, we are debating over Utah State University in Logan UT or University of Utah in Salt Lake City. In Logan, there's family. In SLC, we'll be going at it alone. We came to the realization last night that I'm only going to be able to go part time most likely. That way I can work full time and be able to share in the responsibility of caring for Ryder. Landon can work part time (maybe) & go to school full time... which leaves him with spare time for being Mr Mom. I heard back from Convergys yesterday & have a phone interview on Monday. It's definitely not my dream job or number 1 choice, but I guess I have no choice at this point... Ugh. Stress.
April 15, 2010
Congrats!
I posted my last post too fast...
I wanted to congratulate Amanda and Tim Kelly on their newest edition! Lauren is a healthy beautiful baby!
I wanted to congratulate Amanda and Tim Kelly on their newest edition! Lauren is a healthy beautiful baby!
Mess of a Week
We moved into our house on Chilie Verde Dr, October 20, 2009. Today is April 15,2010 and I just got motivated to de-clutter, sanitize, scrub, & clean our ENTIRE 2,200 sq foot house. You are probably curious what my motivation was... a HUGE hairy gray 8 legged enemy in my shower. He thought he'd outsmart Landon by climbing down the drain. Only Landon was smarter & sprayed water down the drain. out popped the ugly thing & SMASH, my husband is a hero! I would of had a heart attack if I had found him. Needless to say, I'm waiting to shower until he gets home to inspect first (: So far, the upstairs is still waiting because the downstairs is THAT messy. 1 living room got cleaned & rearranged last night. Funny enough, it's the "spare" living room & the first room that people walk into. Well, it was more like our storage room. I'm sure people that we were disgusting. Not anymore though! (: Our other living room got majorly decluttered. It almost looks empty. Next i'm hitting the kitchen & downstairs hallway where i stacked the clutter. haha, yes i moved clutter from 1 place to another.
Landon & I also decided last night that we have NO choice, but to start working out. We took our measurements, I bawled like a baby & declared to never eat another bite of food again. Tonight I start my workout. 5am wasn't so appealing this morning!
On a much happier note, my little cutie has found his smile & it never leaves his face. He's also discovered the mobile of animals on his bouncer. We gave in & bought him a toy, Dylan the Duck, to hang on his car seat. don't worry, i don't hang it in front of his face in the car. It sits in his lap so he can push on him to make noise.
It was love at first sight (:
Landon & I also decided last night that we have NO choice, but to start working out. We took our measurements, I bawled like a baby & declared to never eat another bite of food again. Tonight I start my workout. 5am wasn't so appealing this morning!
On a much happier note, my little cutie has found his smile & it never leaves his face. He's also discovered the mobile of animals on his bouncer. We gave in & bought him a toy, Dylan the Duck, to hang on his car seat. don't worry, i don't hang it in front of his face in the car. It sits in his lap so he can push on him to make noise.
It was love at first sight (:
April 8, 2010
All-Star Mom
I still find myself frustrated over my cousin's facebook status the other day... "i'm wondering how others can be so inconsiderate?? i have a new baby & i'm not taking her out only a couple days old." That really pissed me off. I wish was an all-star mom like my cousin. All I wanted to do was tell her to go to hell. Why be so judgmental of other moms. Everyone is entitled to their opinion on how to raise their babies. We may not always agree, but there's no reason to bring it up on facebook. Of course, I told her that was sh!tty of her. Then, after other mom's took her side, I deleted my comment and gave up. However, I'm STILL fuming over the whole thing!
I'm a new mom. no where near perfect. never will be. don't plan to be. I had never held a baby, changed a diaper, much less knew how to care for one. I've struggled with depression in the past and I didn't want to get PPD which would affect my baby. I knew that if I didn't try to make things normal for myself I was going to slip into depression. Not to mention I was terrified of being alone with the baby & that was coming quick! So, we went out a couple of times. It was good for me to see how to handle a baby in public from someone with more experience and of course the help of my husband. We always made sure his stroller and car seat were covered entirely. Maybe once we forgot the blanket when he was a couple weeks old. Guilty there. And I only had to change 1 diaper in public. Call me selfish. Call me inconsiderate. Call me whatever. Just don't call me a bad mother for trying to figure out whats in the best interest of my child.
There. I've spoke... well typed, my peace. OH, I've also made it my mission to not judge other moms. It's uncalled for really. You get nowhere by doing it. So why waste precious time judging others when you can be focusing on your own child?! Okay, I'm seriously done now.
I'm a new mom. no where near perfect. never will be. don't plan to be. I had never held a baby, changed a diaper, much less knew how to care for one. I've struggled with depression in the past and I didn't want to get PPD which would affect my baby. I knew that if I didn't try to make things normal for myself I was going to slip into depression. Not to mention I was terrified of being alone with the baby & that was coming quick! So, we went out a couple of times. It was good for me to see how to handle a baby in public from someone with more experience and of course the help of my husband. We always made sure his stroller and car seat were covered entirely. Maybe once we forgot the blanket when he was a couple weeks old. Guilty there. And I only had to change 1 diaper in public. Call me selfish. Call me inconsiderate. Call me whatever. Just don't call me a bad mother for trying to figure out whats in the best interest of my child.
There. I've spoke... well typed, my peace. OH, I've also made it my mission to not judge other moms. It's uncalled for really. You get nowhere by doing it. So why waste precious time judging others when you can be focusing on your own child?! Okay, I'm seriously done now.
April 7, 2010
a naive mind.
Last night I had a random memory from a couple years back...
I met an older friend at an OBU basketball game. It was their reunion weekend. As I was sitting next to her she was looking over the "what are you doing now" papers and stated shoot me if I ever put homemaker as my job. At the time, it was funny. I had no clue what a homemaker even consisted of. My initial thought was laziness and an excuse to not work. I couldn't fathom being a stay at home mom. boy, was I wrong, WAY wrong! Now take into consideration at this time in my life family and kids were FAR from my naive mind.
Right now I would be writing homemaker as my occupation and let me tell you it was one HARD job. Learning to multitask has probably been my most challenging task yet. Doing laundry while trying to play with Ryder is challenging. He demands my constant attention, unless he's sleeping. But being a homemaker isn't just taking care of a baby, its taking care of the house, your husband, bills, laundry, dishes, meals, shopping and the list goes on... for me, that's a full time job that is much more rewarding than bringing a little paycheck. i'm so thankful that i can stay at home and watch my baby grow up. I dont have to miss out on his "firsts". My heart seriously melts when I look at my precious little boy, especially when he smiles at me. There is no greater feeling than looking over his crib, him looking up at me & smiling as big a smile that he can muster up. I wish every mom had this opportunity .
"By and large, mother's and housewives are the only workers who do not have regular time off. They are the great vacationless class." - Anne Marrow Lindbergh
I met an older friend at an OBU basketball game. It was their reunion weekend. As I was sitting next to her she was looking over the "what are you doing now" papers and stated shoot me if I ever put homemaker as my job. At the time, it was funny. I had no clue what a homemaker even consisted of. My initial thought was laziness and an excuse to not work. I couldn't fathom being a stay at home mom. boy, was I wrong, WAY wrong! Now take into consideration at this time in my life family and kids were FAR from my naive mind.
Right now I would be writing homemaker as my occupation and let me tell you it was one HARD job. Learning to multitask has probably been my most challenging task yet. Doing laundry while trying to play with Ryder is challenging. He demands my constant attention, unless he's sleeping. But being a homemaker isn't just taking care of a baby, its taking care of the house, your husband, bills, laundry, dishes, meals, shopping and the list goes on... for me, that's a full time job that is much more rewarding than bringing a little paycheck. i'm so thankful that i can stay at home and watch my baby grow up. I dont have to miss out on his "firsts". My heart seriously melts when I look at my precious little boy, especially when he smiles at me. There is no greater feeling than looking over his crib, him looking up at me & smiling as big a smile that he can muster up. I wish every mom had this opportunity .
"By and large, mother's and housewives are the only workers who do not have regular time off. They are the great vacationless class." - Anne Marrow Lindbergh
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